Sunday, 25th October
I can honestly say i am not alright. No matter how much Elle makes me laugh or trys to keep my mind off him, that pain in my chest will not evaporate. That unbearable feeling of him not being there, of him not coming back is ripping me to shreds. I know in my heart, that without him I truly am nothing. Walking through the city today, had me wishing that he would jump out from behind a building, or fall from the sky, or just randomly appear and just hold me, so he could see how much i am hurting, So I can have that feeling back. That feeling of security that i gained when i first spoke with him. I love him, So fucking much. Being without the one you love just isn't natural. Dont leave me, Because if the moon fell down tonight, what would I do?