When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
Happy eleven months my baby boy! 
I love you more than you could possibly imagine
I am in love,
and his is the love of my life,
I love you. Lovely.

 I hate it when people are blatantly in the wrong and they turn it round so you feel pathetic and apologize.

"This is my suicide dress," she told him. "I only wear it on days when I’m afraid I might kill myself if I don’t wear it."
"You’ve been wearing it every day since we met" he said.

I wanna be Megan Fox, Katy Perry, and all those 
other confident, beautiful ladies.
One day, Possibly.
I and love and you, Jake Bradley Vassallo.
You are my favorite person in the who world,
You make me feel so happy when I'm feeling so sad. 
I love the way you kiss my on the forehead,
i love the way you rub your nose against mine,
I love how you make me freeze my ass off at night, because your always so hot, you have to have the fan on full blast. I love how your so paranoid about your hair, and how you make me help you.
I love the way you pull me back for one last kiss after we say goodbye. I love how you make me laugh, by dancing and lip singing with the music on the radio. I love how you send me long essays, and how you send me goodmorning texts. I love how you make me watch gory scary movies. I love the way you make weird faces in the mirror whilst doing your hair and how you taught me to do smoke rings. i love how you hold my hand, and how you laugh at the clothes i pick up, I most especially love how you chose me over any other girl. You are my baby, and I will love you forever and always. I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with you, Growing old and raising out kids. I love you jake, I love everything and anything about you. I promise to love you until the end of time.  
I will never hurt you, 
Please dear, Please believe me. 
On some very rare occasions like last evening, 
I wished floating away,
without anyone noticing would be possible. 
I'm sinking, and I'm losing faith in humanity

Ever now and then I kicked the living shit out of me
I must must must apologize for my absence from my blog. You see, I've been putting a fair amount of effort into my Tumblr blog. www.fragilefuture.tumblr.com, Feel free to check that out. I will from now on, continue on with 'Diaries' with hope I get all my original followers back. Thankyou so much. 

I’m yet to have found someone as true, and as outstandingly amazing as my Boy. He keep’s me going. Whenever I’m giving myself a hard time about my appearance, He’s always there to convince me that i’m beautiful, from the inside out. When I’m looking my worst, or when i’m sick, Jake is always near by to hold my hand, look me in the eyes, and whispers he loves me. Jake is and always will me the love of my life. I dont care when someone tells us we cannot last a lifetime, but I disagree, I can be my absolute self around him, I am comfortable 
I love his laugh, his smile, the way he flicks his hair, when he looks at me until i look up, the way he squeezes me so tight i can hardly breath, his eyes, his eyelashes, when we fight and he bursts into laughter, the way we stay on the phone all night to listen to eachothers breathing / snoring, his big toes, the way he rubs his nose against mine. I love Jake, and I always will. I dont care if my ‘friends’ dont like it. NOTHING will ever change the way I feel for him. Jake, you are my daily inspiration, my will to continue. Always.
'Natalie Berry'
Why do you feel the need to steal my words? I put MY heart and soul into them, and now you are ripping them off for your own. It's disgusting, how you took everything about me, and posted it under your own name. It is mine, they are mine. By all means take my photo's but dont you dare take my heartbreak. It was my pain and happiness you stole from my page, how dare you. I hope your ashamed of yourself.
Lie: I look in the mirror every morning and like myself.
Truth: I cannot find one thing in the mirror I am proud of.
Lie: I love myself.
Truth: I hate myself.
Lie: I walk down the street, holding my head up high, confidently. Knowing that, I am who I am,   Noone can bring me down.
Truth: I judge myself with everyone shop mirror I walk past.

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
Explain what triggered your last kiss?
A goodbye.

Have you ever looked someone straight in the eyes and told them a lie?

Who was your crush in 5th grade?

About how many hours of sleep did you get last night?
Hardly any

Is your hair naturally straight?

Naturally Curly

Do you wish anyone in particular was still in your life?

Are relationships ever really worth it?

Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
Jake Vassallo

Who was the last person to text you?
Jake Vassallo

What's the weather like outside?

Where was the last place you bought something?
Globalised. Studded cowboy boots.

Is there anyone you couldn't go a day without talking to?

Did you sing at all today?
Sure did

What is your current desktop picture?
Jake and I

Is there anyone you're holding onto, even though you know you shouldn't?

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?

Last time you swam in a pool?
Summer time

Is there someone, that if they walked out of your life, you'd just give up?

Have you ever made out with someone that had a tattoo?

Is the person you last texted single?

Who did you last hang out with?
Bec, and lauren

When will your next kiss take place?
My bed

When you're getting ready for something, do you listen to music?
Fuck yes

Kissed anyone with the name starting with a C, A, T, J or Z?

Tell me something about the last person you kissed?
He's amazing

When you're single is it alright to kiss random boys/girls?

What were you doing at 11:59 PM on Monday night?

Do you think age matters in relationships?

Is there someone you can’t stop thinking about?

Do your parents have a MySpace account?

Who did you last ride in the car with under the age of 20?
Lauren and Bec

Are you currently looking forward to tomorrow?

Did you sleep alone last night?

Would you rather have your nose or tongue pierced?
Tongue ftw