Sunday, 22nd November
I no longer feel comftable within the friendship groups i've spent time forming over the last few years. I used to be able to laugh, and feel safe knowing they weren't judging me. It's a whole nother story these days. Take the party last night. I was there, But I wasn't. I felt invisible, Only to be fully seen by the pubesent teenaged boys. They turn and look at me, The see me, Then the move on. I had to leave. I am not friends with these people, I can see that now. Maybe, I am being stupid, And overreacting, But I am not welcome with them. I feel like an outsider as i walk past. I can feel their eyes making incorrect statements about me. I hope this feeling of exclusion passes, Because im 100% sure that they are the foundation for my being.