Sunday, 15th November

I have no clue what I am doing. My head and my heart is drowning in a puddle of regret. I love him! I need him, and he's pushing me away. I cant move on like i wish i could. It's too hard. I feel drity and completely yuck. I've lost about 5 friends over the course of this weekend. Which has added onto the pain that i have been holding in. He's driving me crazy, I know he doesnt want me. And Thats a fact. Im in love, but what the fuck am I doing? I dont want to move on! But i have to? Grr my head!